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Nov. 19th, 2008 @ 11:54 pm (no subject)
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she is 6 years old and is a hoot... she talks up a storm and loves to tell me no!  Very very tame. My other birds are still in the lets see stage if we like her or not.

went to FLA to pick her up in Sept ( driving).

our first stop on the way home was to eat dinner at a Stuckys in Gerogia

she like orange food and yellow food...

plays I'm gonna get you and speaks french

talks in mans voice ,  and does the cordless phone real well.. sounds

I'm still getting use to my newest fid.
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blue eye twinkle
Jul. 16th, 2008 @ 09:23 pm tidbits for the brain... eat with caution
Current Location: palace de Northrop
Current Mood: like two pairs of black shoes
Current Music: Love line, Dr. Drew
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 I thought I would pop in and share some interesting info. Maybe to some boring and useless but to others a great alternative.

I have been looking at things a little bit more on the Green side of life. It is everywhere but what does it really mean to go green. Nationial Geographic has a new zine called Green Guide. I first looked at this when I was on a flight to and from Fla.  As things get more expensive and almost everything at some point will kill us... as one gets older.. you do think a little more on the  basic side of things. 

I dabble here and there with Green items that work for me. I use white vinegar and baking soda for cleaning and Grapefruit concentrate to clean and sanitiaze as well. With fids one needs to look at things different. There is also a green pan that I saw on one of the shopping networks.. 139 for 8 pieces....  Even though it is non stick .. it doesn't have the plastic stuff that burns off  regular non stick that causes gases in the air that isn't good for us or animals.

Wally world has a set as well. You know , Wally world ( at least around here) is bringing its image up a little bit like Target. Wood floors, bigger isles, manicans, and wares that normally you wouldn't see in Wally world. Not sure if I like the Beer and wine area( no I am not a prude at all) just strange to see it I guess there.

Wally world is slowly changing their image and they too have some green items that are of some use too.

Anyway, I like to at least look at this site  

http://www.thegreenguide.com/products/


 I find that green items are rather expensive, but it all depends on what it is you are trying to  work with. I'm not a full fledge green person . I try different things and in some ways it has cost some costs.

There was a place on line that made soap from scratch with oatmeal, and other herbs. Expensive for a bar, though the bar would last like 6 months. 

I found some neat things on the site above and one can sign up for it for 12 bucks online for the year instead of 15 to get it at home.

I also like shopsmart:) . It is a division of consumer reports but for women buyers. Some really really good ideas from the perspective of a woman as we shop differently then men do. It hits on the things that we would find the most important info about an item. It's hard to find it in the stores. It is expensive for a zine, but I do buy it or at least just look at it when I am out.

Well that is all... see told ya boring..... right.  I have other sites I use for odd things that interest me.

Internet Public liabrary... has many avenues  for searching for stuff.

A place to get actual full spectrum lighting for half then what you go out and find. Not the stuff that says it replicates the sun with a color factor that barely gets to 89 at 4800..... no, I get 96 with 5900...  12 bucks is better then 24+

101 ways to save money and I get allot of free samples from Wally world site. I get on slickdeals.net and under freebies I have gotten lots of stuff for free to try.. I must have at least about 40 items that I got... shoe shine wipes to bars of soap, female items to personal size hand lotion or face scrub.... 

I know by doing that , if I would have bought all this ( even at a dollar store or a sale at a store) I have about 30+ dollars of free stuff .... not bad

online video guide to watch movies and TV shows.... lots of places there to look for stuff.

I'm all over the place and one thing leads to something else that I had not even thought about till I just started clicking a link in an area of interest and it takes me to a completely different topic all together.

Lately it has been looking for Bird diapers ( a suite to put on them so A) they don't fly away and B) helps from the bird from doing its business on people or when you are out. No restrictions on the animal. But they are expensive. I have found a suit for like 15 and then the same one is 35 on another site. Frustrating in looking for them. All my birds are different sizes. I need to get petite, small, medium, and extra wide.   I can get 3 suits  and a lanyard and some liners for 55. That isn't too bad... but if I got all of them a set like that ..that is 200+ on flight suits. I would make them, but I do not sew. I have found some on E-bay but I have never ever gotten anything from them... seems to darn complicated to bid and stuff.. though they do have the best prices on some of the suits. Arggggggg.

I did find Organic bird food that one gets at the vets for 23.99 for 5 lbs as compared to getting it  at the vets for 37-40 dollars for 5 lbs.  I do get medium type food , I mix it..   I was able to get 11 pounds of bird food for 75. That sounds like allot , but the 5 pounds for a lovebird can go for at least 8-12 months in the freezer. Over all good deal.

Oh , changing the subject. I was in bed and I was trying to move my SF drink and of course it was red and it slipped and now I have a pink part on my carpet! I did put baking soda  on it and it helped with it a little bit... but

I just wanted to scream when I did that . I saw it come out of my hands in slow motion and the wonderful splash all over the carpet and my matress.  Damn it.

I have a Dr appt on Monday and It will be interesting to see if my sugar has come down a little. I hope I lost at least 1 pound.. if I gained.... plunge the knife in my chest and turn.  I have had my good days and bad days.

I should get a monitor but I have no idea which one to get. The strips are about 55 for 100. But I am looking for something that has the lancet with the monitor. If anyone knows, let me know. I have tender fingers , but can't you do it on your arm too or something like that.

that will be a good way for me to eat better if I can see the numbers instead of waiting for my Dr to tell me I'm a failure.
It is amazing how many people have pre diabetic numbers and don't know it and it getting worst with the obese population , which I am in...... crap.....

I do have a numb area on my right side of my rt foot and it tingles a little. That sounds like what I have heard people say  as being an issue with ones sugar and blisters can form fast and healing is long.... 

Though I have been wearing Ryka Maryjanes that are so comfortable, I barely feel them on my feet.  When I was running around on the dock and stepping hard to do pallets and shippments , I noticed that the outer side of both feet seemed to feel sore and bruised. I never complain about my feet, but I was then. Maybe I have hurt something in my foot and thus that is why I have the numbness and the tingleing..

I still have the belly fat and when I squish it I can't feel it persay , but then I leave massive bruises all over me that just looks wrong.

I'm hopless ... hahahahahahahaha 

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Jul. 1st, 2008 @ 07:31 pm Stuff to go in one ear and out the other
Current Location: work of me
Current Mood: like a snail with glasses
Current Music: I'm running with the band

Today it seemed that a guy here at NG, the facilities guy , got his car stolen in broad daylight. It was parked and locked in the LL garage right when you come in. Where I put mine. He had just gotten a new car and had his credit cards and checkbook and such( not in plain view) as he was going to go to the DMVs. 

I guess he went out to his car and it was gone. They went to security and told them and they went and looked at the camera that is out by the bay towards the street and the Hyatt. A black car was seen going in one direction and in a very short period of time, the black car is seen again and this guys car was right behind the black car at about 2 PM.

Holy crap.. watch your car go bye bye and you just bought the damn thing, with all his CC and stuff in it....
I was in the elevator as the police was stating that cars are stolen to be sent overseas for cash.  Oh great, isn't that just lovely.

Well in about 4 days I have another birthday. Yep old lady I will be. I have taken off the 7th for a long weekend.

Last weekend was the first weekend with my new AC. I love the digital stat.

One thing I have noticed is that I have the windows shut , that I can't breath due to all the dust in my bedroom... serious dust people.. I never sneeze.. but now I am ... and my nose is getting red as I keep touching my nose as it feels strange on the inside.

My monitor is just a grey matter on the desk, haven't used my desk top in over 2 years after it was fixed up a little bit since dick messed with it.I was so screwed over by the cost and the items in the PC.. but he got my money and thought he was so freaking clever and that no one knew of his lying ways he had about money and providing the top of the line service... crap all crap.

I have made a little head way in cleaning my house that I have been trying to get the umph to do for the past year.

I need to do it before chico gets here....

I saw on Myspace a guy that I work with has a band The War Within... he is the drummer. Now there are lots of bands with that name so it seems.
He is rather cute and dark like an Italian and with a nice bod... and light brown eyes. I see him in the work world so to see him in that venue it is sorta strange. His brother just started here as well and he is in the band too.

They use to be in the band Cobbler on you tube... the song really is catchy and they are independent, but they have the potential like allot out there.

I can't even carry a tune .... 

well, other then that .. nothing else to purge my soul about.

maybe later

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blue eye twinkle
Jun. 23rd, 2008 @ 10:42 pm rats and dang and holy sugar...... and a little meat on the side...
Current Location: round table of paper and more paper
Current Mood: like a fuzzy slinky
Current Music: love line
Oh my Gosh.... I have been writing a post for the past 50 minutes while listening to love line.. and my damn computer.... did something really stupid and wiped out everything I just wrote......

I guess that was Gods way to say.. that I was being boring..

Oh Gee thanks.


Oh .... Hello Knighty..... been a long time girl. I love your posts.... interesting perspective amongst other things. You have allot of guts to do stuff or say stuff that I am wayyyy too shy to even blow....

Ok people... no laughing ... me shy........ok... I'm thinking .............


hmmmmmmmm   Yes, I'm shy...... sorta not and sorta yes... all depends I guess.

Know i am totally miffed that all that stuff just went poof 

I will try again tomorrow I suppose... I will now leave and listen to love line all the way home......

The young kids who call are soo Valley and say "like" allot.  They say "stuff" and "like ummm" and "like totally hot"  and "omg , like , you know".  

It must be the age I suppose.  The guys say"doing it", and seem to be more thoughtful in the questions that they ask. 

Men seem to be more inquisitive in what they are doing to their partner. But sometimes It is sorta sad cuz old programs of the old school of love and myths still seem to crop up even in this day an age.

I was a bit taken back as a guy who was once in jail , his cell mate out masterbat with bologna around the weener.... I did have to laugh... but then I did have to think about it....at least he was creative.....

I know all you guys out there are laughing too.... but I also think at least one of you guys will at least try it to see if it feels the way it should.... plyable and warm, add a little moisture...... Helloooooooooo folks .....let the boat rock up and down and side to side hitting all the corners of the box.

hmmmmm 

think I have sprung a leak you all..... I think I need to go to the deli...

lololololololololololo

no really , wett the ole whistle.....


I best go get in the car now and take my assshhhhh hommmmmeeeeeeee.
And take a shower and use the hand held turned up to death pressure

until we meet again
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blue eye twinkle
Jun. 3rd, 2008 @ 10:40 pm A trucker from OHIO.. with a dog named Sammy ( a yorkie)
Current Location: round desk of work
Current Mood: why not someone has to
Current Music: humming of the fan blasting on me
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 Today I was waiting for the truck to show up to take the frieght I literally sweated my ass off to do. I am now the queen of international freight... oh lovely. My Client is NCIS. I have sent out over 500 boxs that I have had to carry to the dock, place on a pallet , shrink wrap and strap.. then go into the system to creat the order.

He called several times for directions a couple of times. I heard him say he just did a u turn with his 53 footer....... did I hear that right.... 53 footer.

He finally showed up and I saw he was letting his little doggy Sammy out. Oh my god , what a cute dog. big guy in a gigantic truck and this tiny yorkie. Too cute. He was scared of me , but I tried to make him feel calm...nope.. no go.

I couldn't believe he got the thing in my dock. I'm thinking he only had 4-5 inches from the top of the bay.. now that it freaking tall.

Well, he opened up his truck and there was nothing in there at all. Just a long dark place. He was picking up my 500 lb. 2 pallets that was going to Lejeune NC base. That is all he was shipping.. two pallets for that only... geeee.

truckers are really hurting for work these days. He was from Ohio and his name was Melvin....  just sees funny to me... Melvin and Sammy taking the roads by storm.

I had to give him very specific instructions when he gets to the base as one of the agents was high strung about where the shipment was to go and NCIS has this big big contract all over the world. All the 800 boxs I brought up stairs , I brought down stairs to ship out.

It's kinda nice being the only one in that area.. I support over 700 people and keep the wheel running pretty well, until the NCIS people demand I do their shipments and try to send out with out export and control invoices for international  shipments.  They say , ok.. it was cleared... now have it in Japanin 3 days..... I has to be there.  Ummm there is a thing called customes and export and control has to approve all items going out down to the actual backpack its self.  Very very kool things that are  sent. things to scan the eyes for identification along with finger print scanner. A 8000 lap top going to the field and a solar battery  that is really neat and it is only 80 bucks. It can be used for anything. Me likes.

I sent out items worth 200,000 last week. Makes me nervous as hell. Fedex messed up a shipment to Italy and spain... somehow both boxs went to  Italy ... um   noooo one needed to go to spain . I had a tracking number that said it never left me........NCIS got all wigged out. wasn't my fault guys.. so leave me alone you order pushers you.

It seems I am dealing more with military bases and such. Kinda neat as I am not familiar with those types of people. Shoot, I had a man from Creech AF base in NV... calling me about sending back some training station that is 6 feet and is about 750 lbs....... ummmm  do you have a contact? No.  Do you know where it really goes... well mission systems. Needles to say my boss sent him to me.... I have no idea what a SAR training station is.. something to do whith unmanned stuff in the field. Went over my head.  But I went to the Army side and asked around and I was hooked up with the big kahuna for Af buisiness department.  Seems that this stuff may need to go to CA?  

I like having control of my enviornment. I am good at it and I'm organized and i have trianed at least 70 people on the NG shipping application. Scats queen so they say. My own boss doesn't know how to use the darn thing. I play with it when I am bored so there you go... I am the go to person.

The other day , I took my new medicine as i was eating something. All the way to work , my stomach didn't feel right. Sure enough I was in mail services and it hit me so I walked out and went to the closed room , ladies showers.. thank god they gave me access to us them because of how dirty I get literally on my stomach on the dock. I barely made it and it started coming up and everything went blurry. I almost didn't make it to the john literally. I hurled like 6 times and of course when I throw up ... well .. I piddled.... thank good ness I had sweats to change into. embarrased of course. So the moral to that , take the horse pill after I eat.

My sugar has gone up and so has my A1c so she put me on a normal medication. 1000 mg BID.

Lost 10 pounds , but tons more to lose and I have to or I can become a full blown diabetic..... I guess the 7 years I was a dietician asst. will be helpful.... harder to treat yourself though. That is probaly why I sweat so hard and I mean hard. I will just put a little mascara on and the beads of sweat just rolls off me.
Attractive i know.. hold yourself back.. hehehehehehhe

I feel like and old beat up Chevy at times.....but I work so hard at work and it takes me a full hour to deliver everything I need to.. when I go home .. I don't want to take the walk cuz I've walked alot more then 10,000 steps.

I know , yes I see the little violin you are showing me. poo heads.

Trying to figure out how to get Chico. Any other time I wouldn't even attempt to drop something like 1000 to get him here and get him vetted and have his cage shipped here. I wasn't in the market for and African Grey, but since it is Larrys neices , I really don't want to see him go back to the  place he came from and wait to be adopted amongst the 14 other screaming Fids.

Allot of planing ahead and trying to pay for it... miracle needs to bless me and fast.

Ok, I need to leave now... and for BD sorry we ran out of time for you.. we will be back on tomorrow night when we have someone alot more important to broadcast...
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May. 13th, 2008 @ 06:52 pm birdy birdy in the sky
Current Location: swivel chair of laughs
Current Mood: like a fat tick
Current Music: junkies bickering
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 I have a picture of Chico. It has his owner ( Candi) the Brunette and her best friend( Christi) He looks small in the picture, but he isn't. He is med to large bird.like a 3lb ham with wings



Candi wants to be a model and be in movies. They both are going to be in an Independant movie called Stillettos.

I was thinking of changing his name to Nekko ( sorta sounds like chico) maybe I'll just leave it as is. It's not that bad of a name but I it wouldn't be my first choice.

came in today and the fire alarm was going off. I walked in and my boss told me to go outside....My boss was running around with her boss trying to see where the fire was.

It must have been dust or something. The sensors are that sensitive. I guess that is a good thing to know.
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Apr. 25th, 2008 @ 06:03 pm Chopper Whoppers
Current Location: many rooms in the mother ship
Current Mood: and fighting with boxs
Current Music: Some station in CA
 Since I work near Dulles Airport , we can see the planes coming in and out. the view from the top floor is nice.  Supposidly there were something like 180 people  coming back from the war and they were landing in Dulles.

Security had no idea what was going on and was looking on all the news. Nothing. 4 Gigantic and I mean.. freaking huge helicopers were over the Airport. Other Choppers where all ove the place.  

My boss said she heard it on the news in the morning on the way to work and they wanted people to line the street all the way to Leesburg or something like that .

Media was very selected as who knew and who didn't.  The air was pretty awsome to look at though.  Took us a little bit to figure out what was the hoopla there.

Being stuck in the building in the belly of the hole..... I miss tons of stuff.

Ok that is it... nothing else worth boring you all with.... 

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Apr. 10th, 2008 @ 11:08 pm films of stuff and then some
Current Location: where else... a winabego
Current Mood: as usual
Current Music: humming of the fan and the tapping of my foot to nothing
 Things I have done lately. 
I finally watched soylent Green. A preety neat Sci fi for the 70's.

I watched a documentary on porn and Snuffing.. Odd never knew there was such a thing.

Watched a doc on being in a fraternity and the horrors of getting into the group....really like boot camp for the war...scarey in someways.

 I watched today a doc on the movie rating and how it is done and by who and how secret it is. A full time movie rater would start at 30 k. 

A real political game within the industry. They act like the CIA .  Interesting by what constitutes the rateings and why.... why one movie is NC-17 as compare to a R rated movie.  They would put to scenes side by side of two different movies and they would show the nc-17 rating on got and the other got a R. both scenes very similar in action and such......

BS If you ask me. The whole point is to be fair and just and be objective. Nope. When you were to get an appeal, there are two clergy there, though they don't cast a vote...your not allowed to know the people who are on the forum for rating .. against the rules.

oh a woman had a too long orgasim.... not overly done at all.... got an NC-17 rather  then the R..... one rating as compared to another is millions of bucks in the pockets of the highers at be.

also , the appealing people.... all owners of large movie productions and movie theaters..... profit of course is the goal here folks.

I was watching  a doc on a boy who is incredable with numbers and and could  actually  perfectly ( in five hours) spell out all the numbers of phi.  5 hours people.. he got every number right. No not Autistic , though he had seizures when he was 4. He was one of 9 kids. He can learn a language from scratch in a week. He learned perfect Icelanic in 7 days and the test was an on camera talk with news people on a show. Perfect everything diction and all and he understood every word no matter what it was in perfect conversation no matter how complex.

He sees numbers as pictures and scenes with texture and shape. I was blown away.

I also watched a doc on Alcatraz, personality disorders ( multipals),and many shows of ghost hunters and destination truth. 

I also was watching last night a show on truckers and truck stops and how they make them and how they make the fuel tanks for the gas stations.

I 'm not sure why but I have gotten into watching documentaries during lunch as it is better to have something like trivia rather then a movie to get all engrossed in I suppose.

OH and BDs not allowed here so there!

I also saw a three headed frog , he was sorta cute looking in an odd way. Baby animals are so cute esp when I have lots of them to look at in slideshows.

And another weird thing is all of the sudden many girls are coming up pregnant here at work.  Like  allot.... all around the same  time... what did they all get on the phone or something. So many different walks of life starting over.... Things that make you go hmmmmmmm.

Rule .. dont drink the water ever!

and also don't eat an entire sugar free bunny..... goes right thru ya and you hop like one two go to the cat box...
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Mar. 31st, 2008 @ 10:29 am (no subject)
 What I thought was my imagination was ATT personel. I thought I was seeing things esp a black entity......

Almost swallowed my gum..... Creepy as shit
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blue eye twinkle
Mar. 27th, 2008 @ 07:23 pm (no subject)
Current Location: cheker board land
Current Mood: like a bobble head
Current Music: Taps show

My fairy godmother is checking to make sure I behave.....

fat chance

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Mar. 20th, 2008 @ 08:49 pm just a holla
Current Location: chair with wheels
Current Mood: from lifting so much
Current Music: rolling stones...
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 Wow , today has been very busy with outgoing freight and lots of boxs to haul around. sore as all.



Here is mom and her new car.  One thing   I learned about this car was that it is keyless. You have a remote to open and close. Once you get in you just turn a knob and the car starts...no key

also this car is a manual and an automatic.. It can do both

It has 6 gears to shift with. There is no clutch. There is a bar you hold behind the steering wheel as you are driving to go into the gears. Sorta like when you  ride a bike and have to change gears on the handle bars.

The inside lights are red in the dash. Cool red glow. When you get in at night a red light shines in the passenger and driver side area where our feet go as to say ...put  feet here.....

Mom has always been frugal so why not have something to putt around in..

I told her that her stance was so 60s .......all she needed was the hair that housed a family of  5.



Here is an odd house you don't see alot of  in your neiborhood.

I had to take a double take when we drove past it.. This was in Orlando/ Kissamee

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blue eye twinkle
Mar. 18th, 2008 @ 11:41 pm vaction is only in my mind now
Current Location: big black chair
Current Mood: on what life has right now
Current Music: Junior , why the long face
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 Well, I came and went to Fla in one piece. Of course there was a missed flight, a flight delayed with no connecting flight out of Atlanta. Had to fly out the following day... but hey , like I have all the time in the world............NOT.

Was kidnapped by Peep and his lady friend to Orlando and of course it was raining.  Kissimee was interesting though of course I got sick walking around the town on a ghost hunt. Yes. Peeps... I know what I said about the cold..well whoopty do... I got sick ok..... don't make me eat your mellow face off........ HA!

Things were rather expensive to go to like epcot and some of the big places... 75 clams.... no don't think so.....tons of putt putt places. Like I would be a royal risk with a club in my hands.

walked around down town Disney and took pictures of Peeps grabbing Donald Ducks woman... and placing fingers in the loins of Tigger.  It was hard to find things there to snap up for a memory cheap. 4 bucks was as close to cheap as I was gonna get. 
I did have to treat myself to a candy apple and I purchased 4 chocolate covered strawberrys to the tune of 9 buckeroos. I know..... 9!  the fair lady told me they were very very good and red and juicy.

The hotel , well... lets just say... what happens in Orlando stays in Orlando. I will say that Pinapple juice and the strawberry stuff was pretty good..... a fruity drink for the fruit in me......

Had some good meals while out. beef stroganoff isn't a normal thing they have in Manassas buffets..... yummy good I say.

I used my camera I have had for a while and had used it to video for the first time....not too bad... It just shows how much I move though while taping. Make note to self( don't make people barf by moving camera all over the place). check.

when we went into the ABC store it must have been in a seedy part of the town... most of the stuff was behind a glass window ... bars on the window was a dead ringer give away.

we went into an adult store and shy me was trying to act so innocent and just skimmed the merchandise... my team mates were there one minute and then the next I knew I was alone in the room looking around for them.  They entered the secret door and were lost on the other side. I rush in there trying to be all cool and all. The dude behind the counter was a bit weathered and just creepy. My friends of course are like kids in a candy store seeking the best wares and find old favorites from thier youth.
I was stuck to what I saw on the wall and quite frankly had no idea how in the world "that " could be used without severe medical attention ensueing a 911 call.

By the time I felt like being a little bit more curious, the other part of the mode squad found thier diamond in the rough and made a purchase and out of the secret room they went.... and yep , I'm still all wide eyed and looking for something that was for the mere rookie and envision it in my pea brain  of the world of erotica.  All that came thru was flannel PJs with Pooh Bear on it.

One of my purchases of the night was lollypops.Ok there, slow down .. I was getting way out of control. I licked the darn thing about 5 times and then bit the damn thing. 

Mom and I went to get our feet done and they had a special where we could have a drink and some munchies. we got the fuzzy Navel as we were pampered. The  message chair was rather nice and it really did what you programed it to do. I thought at one point , mom was going to be pushed off the front of the chair and do a nose dive into the bubbling water where her feet were that was changing colors and lots of bubbles. It was the rolling part of it... and boy did it roll.

We went to dinner at the wine company. It was dark and the food was rather pricey to me. They had wine bottles on a table in a circle where you could get a glass of wine . My step dad is on a kick on getting wine. He can have port wine, but he has gone a little nuts.  His sugar is up and he is on pills for that .But he is determined to go against better judgement and go way over board. He must have a death wish. 

His health isn't good and I think for all his life he was thin and never had to worry about his weight and now it is very hard for him to get around. All those years of smoking has come down to him having COPD and emphasemia. He refuses to try to lose the weight. Now he is back to smoking again... I just want to smack him.... I know he hates the way he feels.... but he is very hard headed. Helloooo you can't breath as it is!

I went to the Dr and I had lost 8 lbs. Now I have about another 90+ to go.....

While I was there, the weather was about in the 60s or so. A few days of rain.
I went to my step dads , sisters house. Her daughter has an African Grey and they want to find it a good home. I'm very seriously thinking of bringing him to Va this summer. His name is Chico and he is about 3 years old. They will give me everything that comes with him. If they sold him, he would be worth about 2k for everything. I will get him free. A ham with wing.... he asks if you are a bird, mimicks the phone and the microwave, and burps and then says shut up to the dogs and sometimes he tells himself to shut up. He bit the crap out of me , but that was because I had my glasses on and they freaked him out. Larrys sister kissed him and held him on his back in her hands......all my other birds were adoptions.... this one will be the very last one if I actually go thru with it. One vet bill for the work over to see the general health and such.

Greys are very courious and have a high mental capacity and need much stimulas for the noggen.

we will see, but for now .. I say I will get him and they will hold him for me. I think it is a HE as the eyes are more round. Eyes that are more football shaped appear to make the sex a female.

I took video of my fids as I havent done so in a long time. I am trying to give Monte Mont much attention and stuff to shred to pieces.

I am concerned about the smokers who live under me though. They smoke outside as they do not want smoke in their place... What about mine.... I go out side and I can smell the stale stink of the smoking. It comes right into my place when I open my windows. Do they care.. no. all they care about is that they get to smoke and then go back into the smokeless comfort or their home. I'm not sure how to handle it this year. I asked the office and they said I can't do anything as it is common ground on the deck ... just  keep your windows closed.  

Um... they can keep theirs open but I can't due to the smell.... not fair to me or my birds or my lungs. Arrrgggggggg 

They are doing much moving around at work.Something like 300 people are moving around in my building and there are more frieght stuff I have to do as well.
 Yes I do freight from start to finish. Loading and unloading shrink wrap and metal tie up.  work my butt off.

though no more mula coming my way.. and that sucks.. since I am the one running the room  all by myself.

well I must be going home now as It is way past my bed time.......

oh and gas.... my god is it going thru the roof or what.  At some point companies are going to have to have flextime or something......I don't know how the very very strapped are doing it.. I am barely making it period. That is why I don't do anything or go anywhere.

I'm due for a my damn 2%.... that is something like 15 cents more an hour....... Bullshit I say.

 

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Mar. 5th, 2008 @ 09:11 pm (no subject)
Current Location: work desk of paper
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: talk radio

 The other day I brought home Yoji. I cried a little , but at the same time a little "hardness" in feeling.

She is in a nice box that was in a blue velvet pouch.

I missed my flight today to go to Daytona. Probably my own fault. Slept too long and then I was running around getting medication and going to the Hyatt and then on the shuttle.

I got there and my flight had left. I couldn't get a later flight for today as there was a flight going to Atlanta, but no other flights going to  Daytona tonight...

Soooooo I have a flight that is going out at 6:40 Am .. I have to be at the Hyatt at 5.00 AM to leave there at 5:15 and get there at 5:30 to go thru security.

I have a 2 1/2 hour layover in ATL airport.......I hope I don't become a picture on the side of a milk carton.

Came up with some story as to why I missed the flight to tell my mom. She would just be pissed off at me... so I just pad the problem a little.

I'm going to Orlando and being picked up by them on Friday afternoon. I worked with a guy and he and his lady are coming to see me. They got a hotel room in Orlando as Speed week is in full swing and they couldn't get room closer to me.

Well, he got a new car so a good reason to break it in... I will pay for some gas though just to be fair and all.

I took my other fids to the vet tech who is going to watch them. Of course I botched that up too. Of course it was just pouring raining as I was transporting them. The winshield was all fogged up as well as my glasses. I was rushing around and was flying down 66 and I began to hydroplane and it scared me to death. On the way back I almost hit the metal sticks that are on 28 that make you verge to the left. On the way to the Hyatt to day I had to hit the breaks so hard my wheels locked up and i was only going about 25.....

Never fails when you need to be some where.

Well , I must go and get some sleep as I have to get up by 4.15 in the AM to leave by 4.35 or so.

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Feb. 24th, 2008 @ 12:59 am My Yoji baby died today
Current Location: Her loving home
Current Mood: blank wall
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 Today has been a sad day for me . I woke up to seeing Yoji on the bottom of the good night cage. She had been sick with a high white blood cell count and ulcers in her mouth. I had her on two kinds of medications and it looked like the ulcers had gone away. She was eating and drinking and pooping fine. Her squak was a little  weak but she didn't seem in distress or anything.  I saw her Friday night about 10:30 , lifted up the towels on the good night cage and she seemed ok to me. But 10 hours later, I found her on the bottom of the cage griping the cage floor and her head to the left and he wings spread just a little, It looked like she clamped down on her tongue alittle.
I was trying to get her off the cage and Monte went in the cage and was preening her and biting me to get away from her. 

Not knowing what to do I just grabed the covered cage and off the the vets I went saying...no no yoji no no no. I could barley see the road and I called my mom to tell her. She really isn't a bird person  but she made me feel as thought it wasn't my fault as she was sick and I was getting her medical atttention as needed. I adopted her when she was 11 and she died at 22. They live to about 25 - 35.

Got to the vets and I said whe was gone and I didn't know what to do so I came in. People in the waiting area could see I was very upset but they didn't stare at me.The vet came in and asked me if I want'ed to do an autopsy to see what was the cause of it if knowing really was a way to come to terms with her passing. 300 bucks and another 260 for creamation and returning that ashes. She had a clay circle and we did an impression of her right foot as the other was hard to get straight. Her head kinda bobled around alittle. I was able to have a brief time with her as it was very very busy today at the vets . Some other emergencies came in and they had to keep moving me around so I could have my quiet time. My final place was in surgery room. I held her and she was soft and i told her she was a good Yoji baby. All of the sudden the vet came rushing in with a guinna pig who was agonal as  it had pneunomomia. They gave  it air and then a shot to make it more comfortable as the stomach was distended. as  well. I had to put Yoji down to help hold the pig so the vet could get a  clean container to pipe air into and put the pig in.

I finally had to just go as it was very very busy and animals were everywhere when I looked thru the door.

I cry then I stop and start again. I know am worried about Monte cuz he was so bonded with Yoji and I'm afraid he will be so sad alone that he will miss her  too much. It has been known that birds die from loneliness and  missing their mate.
All day I have been looking at Monte as I'm afraid he will do too.  I am going to Fla on March 5 for two weeks and I am scared what will happen when I take the fids to the sitter. The sitter though is a vet tech assistant and is familiar with them as she has worked on them before.

I have  been  in bed  all day and the back of my head looks like a big wild mess from taking a shower and then laying down with wet hair. I tried to keep Monte in the bed with me , but he kept dancing and doing contact calls.  The bird that responds to Monte is Kiwi as  I think that is strange. Yoji never really called back, but  the lovies did. 

I can't believe how  expensive it is to cremate . I asked the vet if she felt that those people  will honor the fact that I want her  to be cremated alone. They have a good repuation.

People often do not understand the bonding of a bird and a human. They don't think birds have personality or the ability to communiate with their owners. Of course a dog is  different , it's a dog.

People are very ignorante.

she was my Joji baby and I will miss her so  much. I do believe as with humans that when one dies their soul is still there and they use the material body that they have. So I guess she is flying around up there some were and I will see her someday for sure.





 
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Feb. 19th, 2008 @ 10:43 pm It really felt like a Monday to me
Current Location: gas station in NOVA
Current Mood: like watching paint dry
Current Music: cell blowing up
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Let me tell you the day I had

Got up and was a little dizzy and I did a ramming thing like foot ball players do, with my right arm. I actually moved it. Water went flying all over the place....poor fishes.

was low on gas and my light came on. Traffic was backed up on 28 as they are messing with the road again. One lane, everyone wants to just slit their throats.

I got off at the RT 50 exit. Made it to the 7-11 to put some gas in ( 3.10) ouch.  I only put about 2.5 gallons.

Well when I got out of the  car I had my lights one and I got out of the car and shut the door ( which got caught on my seat buckle)

I didn't know I did that until I tried to get in the car. Windy as hell and my hair is flying all over the place ( nice look) Thin hair, you get the drift.

Everything was in the car. Yes i have copies of keys , they are in my purse. Reg phone, chirpy, car keys in the car..lights on..the over head light on.

Of course this is the first day of me being alone. Guess I'm not making it in by 9 now am I.

I went into the 7-11 and the challenge was to talk to the India people behind the counter. I need to use a phone..mine is in the car and my money is as well... they look at each other.. Duh Hello people. I had to do the hand gestures of wanting to use a phone and one of the workers gave me her phone.

I had to call 411 to get Cingular to get road side assistance. Gave them every thing I had to. "What is your phone number where we can get a hold of you"  I don't know, I said .. I have someone elses phone , mine is in the car.

What is the number of that phone?  dunno.. The lady is busy getting chili hot dogs at the moment.

Of course people are looking at me like we do when we see an odd character that looks suspicious.. yep that was me....no colors I wore matched and my hair has a life of it's own. I felt my name should be sparky.

They cam back on the line to say that there was a tow truck about 20 minutes away . OK , I gave Harwatha her phone back and stood stareing outside.... you would have thought I was a street person by the way people looked at me. The Mexicans of course were not interested in me thank God...those hot dogs were the main attraction in the joint.... I watch him put re fried beans on it and I shook my head at him.. He smiled with his gold encrusted mouth.  I wanted to say.. just go for the burrito over there.. you'll get the same blowing power with them then those dogs there.

I walk outside and stand for a while hoping not to attract people. then I realized that I looked like the Spanish people who were just hanging around eating their power source for the day..... They should have had signs on their asses  saying, keep away 100 feet especially down wind.

Of course they are all huddled around each other and there I was  in all my glory with yesterday clean hair standing straight up, then laying the opposite direction of how my hair normally lays. Can you get the vision here? Not Pretty let me tell you.

I did call Peggy's work number as this was the only number I could remember. told her what the deal was and I would be in soon.

the guy shows up and  I swear head greenish and some other color teeth. Been a long time that i have seen rednecks in  that area. Ha!

He puts a wedge in the door and tries to pull up the latch..nope....... that is all he had....... then he was trying to use a stiff coil that he pulled as straight as he could( it was attached to a fuse and some light..... hmmmmm hope the shit doesn't ignite right about now.)

By this time he is slamming things around saying I don't have the right stuff... um no duhhhhhhh Rufus the snaggle tooth.

He finally turned his hat backwards and said " now the country comes out "  I did a double take.. what? ..... I envision some odd stuff and they weren't legal by any means.He had a wire and asked if my seats went down..... "oh hell now I'm not putten out " ( in my mind of course ..no one else can hear the oh helllllll no but me)

He flipped the trunk lever up and it opened up... had to take all the shit out of the trunk..... I even had to place some those fragrance balls in the trunk in the styro cooler cus the smell was so strong... I couldn't open my eyes..... yes a bad thing when you are driving as I hang my head out the window.

Opps bad hair... nixed that real quick.

He took the lid off of it and he had to wipe his eyes... got to him too.

He showed me that there was lever in the trunk that you can pull to push the back seat down with out using the key.

He slithered his skinny ass in thru the front and had to open the back side door.. those smelly balls were taken their toll.

As this is going on a anorther Indian came up with a piece of paper and was going to talk to my hero.....he said to the guy I can't help you now......he looked at me and then disappeared. Is Satan an Indian ? he was in black  and smelled like curry..... hmm

Well she never went to her office to get it. By 9.35 she is flipping out and called Marsha saying she can't find me. She called me like 7 times. She called Jose to see I had come in or something and she didn't see me. Peggy was upset telling people that I never do that unless something happens and  I do call. She had visions that I was passed out at home or in a ditch.

She was in a meeting with her boss and she stopped the meeting to tell her boss that she was going to call the police as this is not like me at all. then she thought I may have fallen ( cuz of my ice capades incident... or even falling over the curb as I have done that too. Her boss was asking ..who do we call... she said .. I don't know and her mom is in Fla.

Security was looking for me, 2411 had to get the mail cuz I was missing ( to them I was) they even called back to see if I got in ok. Marsha was trying to contact me. she was in WVA, like she could do anything.

Got to work , thru my stuff down and worked non stop till 4.30 PM before I even sat down. I was a little gamey so I had to go into the regular bathroom to give myself a once over with a towel and some soap. My luck hot dog sister was in there and she was fumigating the joint.. poor baby. Ok .. place wash cloth over nose and try to wipe the flab with out breathing. Tough, try it.

I stick my head in the sink and try to wash my hair. Well of course I get the faucet that  has an odd leak and it was shooting on my shirt.  I tried to clean up and get back to the mail room and of course the wall plugs didn't' work.. the darn cover came off in my hand... oh isn't this just lovely. I'  m wet, electricity.......I was a training video for not what to do.

I had put only a little foam in my hair to scrunch it up.... well it was like crispy noodles.. so the stares again.... I think they couldn't stand all my beauty.......or they were looking at the one strand that was standing on the top of my head literally . I saw the reflection and oh my god ,,,,,, Die at the beach ...right ma?

I am eating PB out of the jar in small amounts and I can tell you it makes your mouth stick together. Lucille Ball episode was just a brewing....

Oh ok , enough of you

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Feb. 7th, 2008 @ 12:13 pm Cream of me-ness
Current Location: checkerboard floor of specks
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 My first week of Nutrasystem was a mess. This week it's a little better. I finally walked like a good girl.

I'm going to see my mom in FL for a week in March. Got a real good deal. 156 total. It was a web special....the same flight now is 200+.

It's been over a year that I have not seen my mom. I plan on getting together with a friend while I'm there. Should be fun.

well, Yoji has some patches in her mouth that are white in color. They knocked her out and took a look and saw one on the top of the mouth as well...plus white skin in the back of the throat.

They thought it was Vit A def. I don't feed them seeds, so this confused me . I went out and got all the stuff that I hate and made Birdy pancakes filled with all Vit A stuff.....All of them love it.

She has been on her meds, but a re-eval on her blood shows that her WBC count is 21 as it was 24.... Hmmmm so the meds not doing squat.

 A new course of action. Put her on an antifunal and bacteria plus antibiotics different kind.

Looking on line only makes my stomach turn as I hope it isn't so serious that she would pass on.

The fungas that seems to present as Vit  A  would mean she lives in a very dirty environment and the patches of white stuff is a clue of a secondary infection. She is eating fine, pooping fine, seems active , though birds will be very ill and will not show it unless they are so ill..they can't hide it anymore.

I looked at her blood work back in 98 and it was in normal range... since she was diagnosed with the papalomas it has been high... it was 35 k  and then went down to 14.  This condition could be effecting the blood work as chronic inflamation and the body always having to fight of the inflamation. Then another little germ comes along and she is too busy messing with the other germ to have it not effect her.

She is 20... but can live to about 30-35.  This year has been the first year that I have had emergencies with my fids. expensive isn't the word for it.

I've sorta been lazy at work , like right now. I could be doing name tags, printing out new database stuff, making tags for the supplies and ordering more FEDEX x stuff. But no, here I am listening to a radio station in Fl instead via streaming. I'm so bad.

Have not talked to Teri lately ...she called after 6 months to ask me why I was ignoring her and were we still friends... I told her sure we were.  She said great, maybe tomorrow we can do lunch. That was about 1 1/2 ago. I know it goes both ways but don't get all nasty as to why I haven't been around or called....she has a phone too.  But she is so damn busy with her familys life and catering to them that it just makes it hard  for her to have her own time.  She would say she was going to stay in a hotel just to get some time away......

though of course her phone explodes with everyone still calling her to as her about her room and call for dumb ass things.  It is rare that her phone is silent for about 2-3 hours.  I just get tired of everyone knowing what I am doing as they would ask her "Where are you and what are you doing"    Ummmm this is our time ...but no.....someone needs bread to be picked up..... Her mom could drive, but she is catered too, Her dad would do it but his memory isn't good these days. Her sister that is well over 500 lbs and has a 2 year old can't do shit for herself ..but eat  and sleep and then roll out of bed about 2 hours to get ready for work that is 3-11. Takes her a very very long time to dress. so....Teri gets the call cuz everyone is enabling everyone else. I just don't like the drama .

so here I sit with few friends I see or talk to. People are so busy it seems hard to get a friend these days. Kids, husbands, boyfriends, crazy at work, seems to take up so much of peoples time...they might have 15 minutes in the tub for peace and quiet.

So i'm odd...oh well someone has to be..

I am looking at our plants here in the office and the leaves are just falling off left and right. Pointsettas are full but lack some color and now  have bare sticks.

When I go to Fla , my mom and I are going to Tampa to see a play called "menopause" Should be a nice trek in the shuttle there.

sucks I only can be there from Wed to Wed....but .....it is the best I can do.

well I better go be productive..like go to lunch at 1.00 PM ( that is 15 minutes to stare off into space) lolololololo


ok , till next time.... Oh so sorrry BD, we ran out of time....in this segment...





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Jan. 28th, 2008 @ 07:18 pm Loki bird
Current Location: Cherry throne of paper
Current Mood: full
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Here is Loki  my cousins bird. She really is a dog person and has many different kinds in her home.  He loves eggs on Sat and Sun morning. If you walk thru the door with out his egg. god help you.

He doesn't speak like a wild man but he tries. Makes more sounds . He does a lot of whistleing. I can't get two words out when talking to my cousin on the phone when Loki tries to take center stage. stinker bot he is.

We will just have to see if he will get a new friend or not.

My smaller fids keep me busy. And now that I have to make stuff that has vit A in it... I actually bought stuff that I wouldn't touch  with a ten foot pole.

I must love my babies...who on earth eats collard greens. Of course I get the fresh ones and have no idea what the hell to do with them. Is that sad or what?

Well I must go home now so I can at least do 20 minutes of walking . since today is my first day of changing myself.


sigh... we will see.
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Jan. 28th, 2008 @ 12:38 am mish mash and other stuff
Current Location: loveseat of sagging
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I have been giving Yoji her medicines  to get rid of the infection she has from the Vit A deficency. Some mom I am. I went out today and got all sorts of the things that are hight in Vit to give to her and my clan.

Stuff I don't eat. Collards, peaches, necterines,cantaloupe,apricots,kale,mango,and butternut squash. In there was broccolli too. I do like that . Sweet poatoes, cherries,.

Tomorrow I see the RD that works for NG. My division is now called C2SD. They are having a 8 week incentive to lose weight. I need her to help me stay on track. I have to lose 20 pounds by the time I go to the Drs in two months.

Even though my sugar was 127, my A1C was 6.0  It should be under that , but I am on the high side of normal per that . Hell, my cousin was 12.0! I'm surprised she is still alive . She says she is about what I am in weight. She use to be something like 350+  She has been taking pills for a while now. I'd have to see her to believe she is what I weigh now.

I might be doing a rescue for an African Grey in Fla and taking it half way to AZ so my cousin can then claim him. But..there is a vet exam that has to take place and then meds if the bird needs it.  The owner is Larrys niece and she is too busy trying to become a model. Her mom (Larrys sister) just wants someone to ake the bird. They have a bunny too, but  I can't take the bunny and that bunny has been in a cage for so long.. I'm sure he is mentally ill from it.

Here a complete work up for everything is about 358. Then the cost for me to put my fids with someone , then for me to drive to fla....then maybe get another car to take the large cage and bird to somewhere between FL and AZ. Much money will be  dumped to rescue this animal if it actually plays out. They have animals and really don't take care of them. Sunning themselves is more important.

My cousin  has an African Grey called Loki that she got along with the many many dogs she has adopted over time.

I'm waiting for my rebates to come in for my escrow. about 500+ should be coming in . I want it now!

House still looks like a cyclone , just haven't  gotten over the hump to be productive.

Have lots of stuff going on at work and there I am neat and organized. Home....it is to laugh.

well, I must go and put the groceries away and go to bed like a good goober.

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Jan. 21st, 2008 @ 12:47 pm week ho hum
Current Location: High atop of pillow
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: All of my love
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I had all last week off. And I did get some stuff done. The washer and dryer and the dishwasher was put  in finally.

Had a Dentist appointment and that came to be that I have a pocket of somesort and a soft crown. I have like something 3 appointments. I went to see my Dr about the sugar issue. we talked a little bit and she stated she was putting me on something as because I have been feeling so bad , she wanted me to at least to begin to feel better. I have two months to prove to her I  can lose weight. She said if I lose 30 pounds of the top...I will not have sugar issues and I won't have to take anything. Ok , lets be real here folks... 120 pounds is more like it. Yes I know this is jaw dropping ... I know  I know... I didnt' get this way in one night so I have to , like everyone else in the world...need to shed those pounds. But this time I have no choice.

I still haven't gotten the house cleaning stuff done. Still in a funk and there is just some much I need to do. 

Yoji has a whiteish spot on her tongue and I just happened to see it. I have no idea how long it was there. That concerns me that I must not look at my fids like I should or something. Took her to the vets for a physical and blood work. Her White blood cell count is high so she does have an infection. She never looked sick. They do that in the wild so they don't become a snack.

I took her in and left her for the night so two other Drs could look at her. 

They are not sure what it is so they said put her on antibiotics and bring her in tonight and they will look at it again to see if it is clearing up or they have to do a little surgery on it tomorrow. It might be an abcess. Wonderful , just what  I need.
  More money out the door. Her health is very important , but just right now there is so much other stuff like that I have to take care of , this is just something I wish was happening now.

I t loos a little better to me ..but they will have to look. Taking her out of the Good night cage will just piss her off. I'll just lovey her all the way there.

First day back to work wasn't as bad as I thought, but  I have a list of things to do. My lists at home just makes more neat piles all over the place. Here I have to be more organized . I have to coordinate a training via net meeting with something like 35 + people and they are all over the US. Happy happy joy joy.

Well   must go to be productive until I can split at 6.00.

Hasta babeee
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Jan. 9th, 2008 @ 04:35 pm I knew it was coming
Current Location: atop a pillow
Current Mood: in my own skin
Current Music: Journey
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Have you ever known something was going to happen or know what the person on the other end is going to say to you.

I went to the Drs a couple of days ago for a physical. I knew there were issues esp my robust size as compare to the icon I have when I was 126 lbs. Add 100+ and there you go. Walking death trap. I have done it to myself so I have no one to bitch to. I did it all by myself.

And for the Dick that said I was unattractive cuz I was fat, well you have been fat as well and there are pictures to prove it of what large blob you were . Don't give a rats ass if you have lost it. Who cares. You are still the fat prick in those pictures with  an over sized mouth that make your teeth look fake along with the whiteness of pure snow( NEON ) to say the least and it doesn't look good on you. You have beady eyes and when you close your mouth you have a natural frown along with you sound Gay as compared to most( nasal). I'm sure you wish I were to fall out and eat dirt... because you used up all you needed and left nothing but a shell. I really hate people who cast stones at people like that . There is an issue obviously. I hope you learn you lesson when being so super ficial...someday you will get all the BS that you have done to all the people in yhour life 10 times over. You will deserve every bit of it. You think you are centered and your life is coming together . Nope don't think so.... as you would say ASS Clown.

My issues are my fault  to a point. Then there are somethings that combined with stress, unhappiness,depression,and low life friends that I listen to because they know me better then i do? NOT. Money issues that seem to crop up from time to time( mostley not though).

I know that I am Shamoo material... the  Dr  said I have gained 25 lbs in two years in which that really pushed me over to super duper obese. No I am not like 300. I'm about 2 bucks and some change. I have shrunk an inch already and I am now 5'3". My BP has gone up in the past year from 117 to 130. I have little skin tags all over my skin from the 30 years ago of tanning and such on my legs. Age is creeping up and I am getting little moles on my neck( a pain esp when the birds try to rip one off). I cough and see stars and when I throw up , well lets just say it isn't pretty. I sneeze and sometimes I piddle due to the pressure. Embarassed. Yep I am. But I have only a few of you who look at my posting as in a friendly way wanting to know whats up or not in my world. Others are just NOSEY as hell and pop around trying to catch people writing about them. I'm the only one dick that  even addresses you in public....but you continue to hold on to what ever it is to feel like you are included in the daily scoops. Tracking people makes one look paraniod to some degree.......

If you think one can get back in good graces with an old sidekick.....it is to laugh at. Interesting position you have there. 

Ok back to me....
Numbness sometimes is an issue for my hands or legs or toes. Well I got a call to call the DR back. In a nut shell is appears that my sugar has been creeping up. 3 years ago my AC1 was 105.....last year it was 115....this time it was 127.

Yep.......pre diabetic!  The 7 years 
I was a dietician Assitant in a nursing home will have to come into play. Though it is different when it is yourself. I know it isn't a curse...I can reverse it and get it lowered to the right level. But I have to start to re think how I eat and when. I have to get moving as I have done nothing for a long time. Sleep too damn much. Stop the stress and be happy I have a job , a home, a car and the few friends I have and my family and fids.
At 43 I shouldn't be falling apart. I have no one to blame but me, I have hung out with people in general the past 3-4 years that are just like me to a degree. some have gone the gastric bypass way. I know of at least 6 people who have done this. And one person who just had the lap band.......
I don't know if I want to be sliced open. I know I have determination and I have no choice but to take control over it....my life depends on it long term. I want to live at least into my late 80s to mid 90's. At this rate I could kick the bucket like my dads side of the family in their 70's.

Strange when you are posed with such a crises one thinks , holy crap I could die from this or something else related to it....I don't want to be in pain when I go. This is  a  yes ...No situation...no debateing here.

I want to live and enjoy my life and be mobil for as long as I can. I also need to go to  chiropracter to work on my neck and back. I'm very very out of whack and my neck looks it.

I'm painting such a pretty picture aren't I. For the few of you who have not seen me I must sound like I am a beat up 35 Chevy missing the wheels.

To look at me .. the thing one would say under their breath is she is  over weight and round. I look like the before pictures you see animated on the net. 

I guess when I talk to the Dr I will have to sign up for classes as I need a fresh look at what I have to do. Basically a 1200 ADA, low fat, low cholesterol 4grm. I know the drill, but me monitoring me isn't gonna work. I have to be accountable to someone else.

As angry as this post may seem ...I'm really not angry. I am pissed off only with the fact that the way I look is the only thing SOME people see..and beat down the inner me as in saying "ewwww you too fat...your not pretty anymore......I'm not attracted to you............... 

Ok fine..........

What about the other me ? The person  me . My inside me?

Once a dick ALWAYS A dick.....

I will prove to me alone that I am worth something and that I can do it.
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